Sunday, March 27, 2011

When Hello meets Goodbye

It all started with a single glance that lingers awhile and turned into constant staring and eye meeting from a distance as days go by. Pretty much we started exchanging awkward smiles that turn into a shy hello. In no time the hellos turned into a series of short stop in the lobby/hallway for small talks. Man it was a sweet ride! Magical it seemed, you awaken something in me - a kind of feeling that actually was buried a decade ago. I guess it's too soon, it was just yesterday that we said hello and now goodbye felt like a blow:(
Farewell, till we meet again. Thank you for the 2 weeks "heaven feeling":) 

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

SUMMER Lovin'



I've never subject myself in a diet before...and now i felt like I need to discipline myself and limit food intake if I can! I've tried some routine- tea, half rice, healthy food, no to junks and soda and few sit ups! ( gee, I hope this works!). What's the point? Well, summer is ready and I am not! I wanted to hit the beach by April or May and forgive my vanity, but I'd like to wear some nice summer outfits! {aka swimsuit:)}. My body has never been fit for summer and I've never really felt confident wearing anything skimpy. I'm posting here awkward moment from years back to encourage myself and get that summer body!!!



2007

2008

2009

2009

Special Poem Composed by a Great Writer




There's people I met in the many walks of my life that gives me inspiration to write something about them- their life, feelings, inspiration, a glimpse of their soul. This one here is for a very good friend of mine from way back. I'm glad he appreciated this enough to also post it in one of his blog. The title of that poem is really "Lake of Emptiness". But I Guess he aptly put it as the hardest thing to say:) Here's the link: Special Poem Composed by a Great Writer


One of the many breakfast we shared from 2008

Just hanging out in the Office Pantry in RCBC-Makati


Team Building in Tanay Rizal- 2007

He attended my Oathtaking when I passed the board exam- LET in 2007

Another breakfast!

He drop me off at the airport when I went home for a much needed vacation

Monday, March 14, 2011

Poetry Session


I decided to bare my soul a little bit and post here few of the poems I made. Most of them were from years back and it kinda depicts those people I thought of that moment. I'm kinda fond of writing poems about what I feel for a friend, a special friend and anything in between! hehe. So I'll brace myself for a possible cyberspace humiliation coz I'm not really a good poet, just someone  who happens to be in love with poetry and tried so hard to make the most of what I feel:)

WAVE
by angelaires

Lucid as the water
I see you, I see me
Underneath the cirles of life
We keep bouncing,
Yes, You and me.

We danced through the music,
Lived through life
Laugh at each other
Chuckle at one another
And all the mirth has gone by…

And you cried…
I wiped your tears,
And I cried, but I didn’t feel your fingers
Bracing my pain
Pushing away my fears…

For a moment it was fine
Still we laugh, still we cried
I held the memory
Close to my heart
Closer than all the memory I have hoard

Till this space inside my heart,
Take it all away, so far away
That when I have grasped it again
Feels like a memory long gone by
Drenching my tears
Burning my throat

With the sound of our laughter
Now banished into the thin air
And everything I believed in,
 Hope and lived for
Was taken away from me
Where are we?
In this circle I lose myself
Lost inside the pain that I can no longer ignore

I’m sorry
But I needed to heal
This emptiness I long so ago felt
Maybe I wasn’t meant to stay for you
Maybe you weren’t meant to care for me
Maybe we’re better off
 When goodbye embrace us both


Let us but try to wave
Not because everything has come to an end
But because of something great in store for both you and me...
Let us welcome the people we’re bound to see,
Bound to laugh with, cry with and hold with.
Maybe then, we’ll find it home
Maybe then it was worth the going,
 And the passing, the pausing and the staying
They are but stages we need to go through my FRIEND.

I loved a friend
The way a friend should love a friend
That is all it is and all that I felt.


Another One of the few poems i made from way back.....





February 5, 2009 

Seasons of Love
By angelaires


In your eyes…
Reveals the deepest mystery,
Tangled and lost
Nevel will you set it free…

In there hang the words;
Sofly you lay them all,
Gently you take them back
Time… it does not belong to us

In another lifetime
Hand in hand,
My heartbeat next to yours
Intertwined, beating as one
Maybe then, we’ll have what we want
The most…
Consuming…
Invigorating…
Love.

Fall will soon fade
Soon enough the leaves will get back
Right to where it belongs…
In the bare arms of the trees
Then, I can hold…
The one I wanted the most…
You…
Us…

Winter will pass by,
Yet it won’t stand
Can’t dare to stay
The power of what I deem
What you feel.
Will push it way
Nay, never can it chill
The heat of what we feel
Strong…
Passion…
Us…

Bewildered when spring comes by…
Shakespeare can never be wrong
To be or not to be lies in our hands
Is there a chance?
To keep this real
Letting you know how I truly feel…
Fire…
Burning…
Pleading…
A lifetime with you…

Finally,
A peek of what tomorrow is,
Shall it bring sadness?
Or a taste of happiness?
Will it end the journey?
Or shall I wander some more
in the open galaxy…
Will we find a way
To make our dreams…
Come to reality

Just you,
Just me,
Just the two of us.
No things greater…
Nothing stronger…
LOVE
Is all I want
I need
I breathe
You…
Is all I want
I need.
I want.
I breathe
You are my LOVE.






Well, this is something I made last January 21, 09.
I don’t know what prompted me to write this but by wrecked brain just compelled my fingers to type the words. It sprung from utter randomness of my thought… Can’t say I was frustrated that time…But writing has always been a way for me to keep my nerves under control, relax me and keep me calm enough…Not that I was aggravated that time…It’s just that I’m trying hard to
understand something… Well, it’s a random world after all…whatever I mean.


 Untitled
By angelaires 


Caught in an unknown rhapsody
Yet denied by the pleasure of eternity,
Two hearts, two destination
They’ll never meet, never in unison

Up on the hill of solitude
Yearning to placate that wary countenance
But finding no valor to express thy gratitude
The choice left is a sturdy acceptance
Of what could never be…should have never begun.

If cruel is thy fate that I bid
So what’s worst than being empty handed?
Walking through life seemed like an exhausting struggle
To belong somewhere and be framed in a perfectly woven angle.
Ah. Life, if only we can do what should be done!

Down the road, I glimpse a symptom
As tears flung out of thy maiden’s vision
Aggravated of the world’s convention
What to do, where to go do you have a prediction?
Oh Moon, cover me from the hideous reality of life’s infraction

Here now, the climax is looming
I heard a scream from thy blistered heart that’s aching
Be strong, be noble and be swollen with pride
Do what’s best even if it meant a valediction
For the sun is waiting, with open arms for an untold new beginning.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Real Thoughts

I kept telling and reminding myself " no expectations, for it only leaves you frustrated and disappointed. Besides, loving is not owning. And when the impending end is drawing near...let go, loosen the grip, do not be afraid to walk alone, to wallow in an unknown. After all, people just come and go. Keep those that you can keep in your heart, let go of those who does not want to be remembered. Yes, softly cry your tears...but you don't need to let them know. You can keep your head high. But my pride hasn't been mine for a long time now...I love shamelessly, I care deeply...and when I lost...I have to bear it...and mend myself and give away what I have again...It's a cycle. I get tired sometimes. But I'd rather care than not care at all, I'd rather suffer than be free from painyet being alone.

I love walking people's journey. I like watching them overcome pain, sorrow, depression and victory. I love the feeling of being needed, important, significant...After all, I'm just a normal person like everyone else.

Friday, March 11, 2011

I Love my Top 3!

To discipline myself  to post more in my blog, I came up with this idea to post any top 3 i had in mind for this week/month perhaps.
So today, these are the top 3 songs I am liking:)


First is TRAINS' Marry me. Aww, this is so freaking sweet especially if you watch the video. The lyrics is just so simple but I guess it's the melody that makes it sweeter, nicer. I'm loving it!


"MARRY ME"
by Train


Forever can never be long enough for me
Feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now we won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do


Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
Marry Me
Today and every day
Marry Me
If I ever get the nerve to say
Hello in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Mm-hmm


Together can never be close enough for me
Feel like I am close enough to you
You wear white and I'll wear out the words I love
And you're beautiful
Now that the wait is over
And love and has finally shown her my way
Marry me
Today and every day
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Mm-hmm


Promise me
You'll always be
Happy by my side
I promise to
Sing to you
When all the music dies


And marry me
Today and everyday
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will
Mm-hmm
Say you will
Marry me
Mm-hmm

My second song, I used to play this a bunch lot last year. Amazing sound from Paramore which recently became one of my favorite band (away from my usually senti type of music:)) Here it is!

"THE ONLY EXCEPTION"
Paramore


When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it


And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist


But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception


Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face


And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it


And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist


But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception


Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face


And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness


Because none of it was ever worth the risk


Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception


I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream


Ohh---


You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception


And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing


So okay my last song, this isn't knew but I still love it. Who would forget INCUBUS?!

"Love Hurts"
Incubus
Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast to truth
(I don't want to lose what I had as a boy.)
My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat.
(As common as a cold day in LA.)
Sometimes when I'm alone, I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts...
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive.
Love sings,
When it transcends the bad things.
Have a heart and try me,
'cause without love I won't survive.

I'm fettered and abused,
I stand naked and accused
(Should I surface this one man submarine?)
I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth!
(I'll never lose what I had as a boy.)
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts...
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive.
Love sings,
When it transcends the bad things.
Have a heart and try me,
'cause without love I won't survive.


Aren't they all nice? Loveet!!!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Butterfly fly away!



When's the last time you had that "buttefly in the stomach" kind of feeling? or when you need to hide that sheepish smile? Or that sight of someone really makes you smile out of nowhere and in the middle of crazy buzz and loud noises and voices? I just had one today. Oh well, very much like a teenge girl, but hey, I'm still a girl despite the age. I still have this flair for crushes!

Aww, you take my breath away, like literally:)