Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Little Escape

As i was browsing through the pages of  Philippine star, all because I was interested in Ms. Bianca Gonzales' first article ever published, I was so inspired of the articles I came to read as well. From fasting down to this article of  memento of Jacqueline Kennedy: Historic Conversations on Life with John F. Kennedy; what a treat! I wanted to buy that book and savor it's pages. Hopefully I can find one here in Cebu.

Then came this column written by Lucy Gomez aptly entitled Escape to Within . It reminds us how the simplest things in life can actually make a big difference and impact us in a profound way yet those are the things we shelve in the farthest corner, the things we pay little attention to. Well, it seemed that all I ever do now is remember what I used to like but didn't really get the chance to do those things anymore.

What are my little escapes in life? I used to write so much poems about every boy I liked or even disliked before. It was a sweet escape, and i was even actively doing it through college but when I started working, I lost the time and the energy, and even a subject because I was so hooked up with this only one boy I considered my greatest love (like duh!).

I used to read a lot too. It started just with those silly pocket books about the never ending tale of love, the damsel in distress being rescued and all that silly stuff a little girl so giggles about. Then came college and I was into intensive literary reading which was of course influenced again by that so called "great love" (grrr..). I used to stay up so late just reading poems, short stories, literary novels and biographies of those wonderful poets, writers and philosophers. I missed those moments. I can't do it now because I feel like time does not permit me anymore. Reminds me what Paulo Coelho said " You can always sell time but you cannot buy it back", so please, i hope i can stop wasting mine...

I used to go the library, I used to love walking through this wonderful oval in our university. I used to stare so much watching and talking to the moon and the stars so much you would think I'm crazy. But those were my sweet little escape...and I long to go back in time, be suspended with the moment before I go back to the reality of what is now, where I am today. Again, I can't really complain. Life has been good and it did made some of my dreams come true. But I ain't in that happy place yet. I haven't fulfilled what I came to live yet. So for now, reminiscing will do.



great expectation: how fitting for me


because there is happiness in reading

and of course how sunset and sunrise is such a sight to behold



 i like it when I'm having this moment:) stillness is love:)


Fast forward, my little escapes changed a bit. I now enjoyed cooking, watching cooking shows, blogging and leisure reading and traveling. More than anything, I do a lot of thinking, and i love the stillness of time, of  feeling awkward in the middle of the crowd, of witnessing a thousand sunrise and sunsets, of learning the twists and turns of life, of watching and observing people...and hoping to fall in love one day...the kind of love that will love me back greater than the way I will love him...

Thank you for my sweet little escape today. Now I can go home and rest:) 

Sunday, October 2, 2011

WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS!

Yes, I really thought that september would not be a dead blogging moment for me. Turns out I hadn't posted anything and I kinda felt bad about it. I wanted to blog as often as I can but it is not happening! Well, I actually drafted something but wasn't able to post it on time before September ends:(  and it is still lying/sleeping dead in my drafted items.

Just a few glimpse of what happened with my September. I've been working-hard if I must say! I rendered a lot of OVERTIME. And it really tires me out and im not even achieving my goal:( I went home and celebrated my birthday for the first time! Got a good family bonding and then back to the bleakness of my life.

 I don't know why but I feel like I'm a blank canvas, I needed to be painted on, I needed events to unfold, colors to flash through, I'm expecting something great, grand and unexpected to unfold. Ahh, this wanderlust spirit in me is setting in again. I've had so much ideas and visions to blog about, maybe one day soon I'll be able to put it into writing. But for now, here's a cheer for my SEPTEMBER!


"Wake Me Up When September Ends"
by Green Day

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends