My Initial Bucket list

I've been reading peoples bucket lists of the things they wanna do before their lifetime expires, or before this big event or even before reaching this certain age. I guess everyone that is normal would make such an ordeal when you're getting old- and that does not excuse me- coz i'm normal too you know :)

So I came up with the list of things i wanna do before i turn the dreaded(?) 3-0. But let me tell you why i'm doing this first.

 I've always wished to have the grace, the serenity and peace within upon the thought of my growing up and getting old. I don't wanna give in to the pressure that comes along with this age especially if your reaching the big 3-0 and you are still single. People can really become so unforgiving, so bully and so mean sometimes. Well, i wanted to be proud of myself, to have done many things and compile vast experiences and perhaps wisdom above the average and mediocre individual. If only society will leave me alone! haha. But it's part of our culture i guess.The idea of happy, single and free at the age of 30 is still foreign to a lot of people.

Anyhow, there's nothing much that i can do about it right? So here goes the list! Initially i wanted 30 things before 3-0 post to welcome my, ahem- 30th year- however I can't seem to compile 30 things for now, due to time constraint and maybe I don't really have so much  things I can think of . So let me content myself with this for now, in no particular order:)

1. Slow travel- for 2 weeks or a month, somewhere far, laid back and cheap.
2. Try surfing- and hoping for a beginner's luck!  - My first was at the surfing capital of the Philippines, Siargao island. And yeah, I got the beginner's luck i wished, I didn't wipe out that much, like I got up on the surfboard, all the way near the shoreline. It's so fun I decided to try it back and this time, in San Juan, La Union- that's in two weeks time!
   
3. Get drunk- really drunk. Not because I'm intoxicated from a bottle of alcoholic drink, but because i drunk tones of it! haha, i missed out this phase of my life before- you see, i was a young, determined and goal- oriented woman out to fulfill my dreams-before.
4. Read a book- a good book, a Jane Austen type- or perhaps, find time to read a book and finished it outright! 
5. Try one aerial nerve- wracking experience! I found out i have this fear of heights and motion sickness. I wanna test my limit.
6. Try mountain climbing again-  Definitely not my forte but i'm in to go out of my comfort zone. My first was climbing Mt. Pico de Loro in Cavite back in 2010. Well, just last November 2013, I climbed Osmena Peak, Cebu  and trek all the way to Kawasan falls. That was like 7 hours trek, I think it's going to take a long time again before I'll try my third mountain climbing experience. Haha
7. Learn or at least try to drive a motorcycle- riding alone scares the hell out of me, what more if i'll try driving it! rawr.
8. Join an organization-help a cause, or something to that effect.
9. Start building my savings. you see, I live from paycheck to the next pay :)
10. Tour my Mom- outside the city she lived and breath all her life. Payback time for the supermom.
11. Try solo traveling, somewhere far and provincial.
12. Chase as many sunrise and sunsets.
13. Fall madly in love. Or just plainly falling in love. Nothing monumental!

Help me fill my list! Any suggestions?

jump through life!

and chasing sunrise and sunsets

and surfing maybe?

travel as much as i can

and don't forget to have fun!

The New Normal

Perhaps, like everyone else, i needed to cry too. Breakdown. Broken.
Or maybe not.
Maybe i've got too much of it, without me knowing how or why or when.
Maybe  i don't need to know more, than what i learn now.
Maybe i need to be still instead of wandering.
Maybe i need direction, rather than aimlessly walking through life.
Maybe i need, that old spirit back- that trusting, gullible little girl that I was.
Maybe simple will do and complicated won't.
Maybe resting is better than being restless.
Or maybe i need YOU.

You, whose presence I barely felt.
You, whose soul I have yet to know.
You whose hands i'm dying to hold.
You whose eyes, have been haunting me for years...even before we truly met.

Or maybe, all these and more, are just caused by this global warming.
Maybe all i need, is an 8 hour sleep. To clear my mind and put peace in my heart.
Or maybe not.

Welcome to the new normal.