Friday, April 29, 2011

Top 3 Love Poems:)

I had an amazing afternoon today, so I'm in the mood to name few of my all time favorite love poems!


It's scorching hot, so hot that I'm having trouble sleeping in my room. You see, I no longer have and AC, so I have to content myself with this small electric fan but it can only do so little that I can only sleep for 3 hours and boom- it's over! My room is too hot, am like a chicken grilled inside an oven! To somehow alleviate this problem (I really can't complain so much can I?) i resorted to come early in the office and take a nap but another problem presented itself. It's too noisy for me to sleep. People coming in and out the sleeping quarter didn't seem to care that someone else's trying to get that much needed sleep. Why would they slam the door so hard, knowing that there's a lot of people inside. But hey,  what can I do? Maybe I'll post a note or something for them to have the courtesy of closing the door gently. You think that will work? Hehe. SO what's my point here? Well, because I couldn't sleep at all, I went out and it felt like I see the world the first time!


I've always loved to walk, it's what I fondly called unwinding whenever I'm stressed out. It's a reliever. So the view in global city is really nice, especially during sunset when the light of the day is fighting off with the impending darkness and the hotness of the day is flirting with the calmness and coldness of the night to come. The buildings look majestic with their lights on, people coming out from the building ready to go home and retire after a long, hard day at work. I like watching the city. I'm surely going to miss this when my grand plan of living in the country side comes to life!


So there up in the high street I wander, searching where Krispy kreme is located and there I found it! I like this alone time, but then I'm always alone so when I have moments like this, it kinda felt sad sometimes because I would have loved to share the view, the moment and the feeling with someone. I'ts nice to look at the world with someone by your side. I don't really mean a lover-it could be anyone! Perhaps a friend, a co-worker, a brother, a sister or maybe my mama. Just to have someone would be fine.
So this inspires my post today. As I was walking, I suddenly remember Elizabeth Barret Browning's line in the poem " I loved thee with a love I seemed to lose".


Now it's too hard choosing my top 3 poems. You see, I happen to be so fascinated and so in love with poetry. So maybe I'll start with love poems.
So there, devour with me my top three fave poems and fave poets as well!


Top 3: This is one of the first few poems I fell in love with in high school. I don't have too much knowledge of poetry and of great poets back then (and even till now!) it's like my love affair with poetry starts here.


How Do I loved Thee (Sonnet XLIII) 
 Elizabeth Barrett Browning



How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.


Top 2: Who doesn't know Pablo Neruda? I thinks he's an awesome poet. what with his heart wrenching poems and all. I wonder how many times he has fallin in and out of love to have such vast emotions as portrayed in his poems! And it's just too hard to choose a favorite among all his poems because frankly, there's too many amazing ones! But this one will do for now:)


Tonight I can write the saddest lines
Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example: "The night is shattered,
and the blue stars shiver in the distance."

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
That I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

On nights like this one, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, and sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not not have loved her great, still eyes?

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered, and she is not with me.

This is all.
In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same the same trees.
We, we who were, are the no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that is certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her ear.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that is certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms,
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer,
and these the last verses that I write for her.


Top 1: I think  e.e cummings is really genious. I like his style. I like how unconventional his poems are. I like the thought that poetry doesn't have to follow what is the norm- the rhyming and the all that. I love him and I lov this poem to the bones that I felt like this is mine and nobody shoud take this away from me else there will be consequences!!! hehe:)

Somewhere i have never travelled
e.e cummings

somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose

or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully ,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility:whose texture
compels me with the color of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Hello April!

April is almost fading and I haven't had one entry for this month yet. What happened to that grand plan of mine to discipline myself in posting regurlarly in my blog?! well, as theatrical as I am, the grand plan remains a plan! hehe


The truth is,  there's so many things going in and out of my mine and though I loved to put them into words, I don't seem to have the energy, or is it the will to jot it down.?


Now that just make me missed the old high school days when anywhere and anytime something strikes you, you'd easily go and grab a pen and write down your thoughts, your feelings, your emotion!. The anger, pain, extreme happiness and outrageous loneliness creeping through your veins! Ahhh-teenage life:)


I actually went home for a short 9 days summer vacation. (I posted few pics from this summer escapade below:). Also, I've been busy attending graduation of my 3 siblings, planning for that family outing which is the first in the family mind you:) and of course, cooking here and there. You see, when I'm home, I automatically assumed the responsibility as the official family chef, as if I'm a good cook at all! But yeah, it's one of my latest fascination! I'd like to be able to whip fantastic dishes every now and then and am actually thinking of taking a crash course for culinary...that is for later this year of course. And don't make me go planning again coz nothing seems to happen or is it just me? I almost perfected the art of planning and starting but never able to finish anything. Talk about jack of all trades but master to none. Argghh!
















Btw, my top three this month is coming up...

Sunday, March 27, 2011

When Hello meets Goodbye

It all started with a single glance that lingers awhile and turned into constant staring and eye meeting from a distance as days go by. Pretty much we started exchanging awkward smiles that turn into a shy hello. In no time the hellos turned into a series of short stop in the lobby/hallway for small talks. Man it was a sweet ride! Magical it seemed, you awaken something in me - a kind of feeling that actually was buried a decade ago. I guess it's too soon, it was just yesterday that we said hello and now goodbye felt like a blow:(
Farewell, till we meet again. Thank you for the 2 weeks "heaven feeling":) 

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

SUMMER Lovin'



I've never subject myself in a diet before...and now i felt like I need to discipline myself and limit food intake if I can! I've tried some routine- tea, half rice, healthy food, no to junks and soda and few sit ups! ( gee, I hope this works!). What's the point? Well, summer is ready and I am not! I wanted to hit the beach by April or May and forgive my vanity, but I'd like to wear some nice summer outfits! {aka swimsuit:)}. My body has never been fit for summer and I've never really felt confident wearing anything skimpy. I'm posting here awkward moment from years back to encourage myself and get that summer body!!!



2007

2008

2009

2009

Special Poem Composed by a Great Writer




There's people I met in the many walks of my life that gives me inspiration to write something about them- their life, feelings, inspiration, a glimpse of their soul. This one here is for a very good friend of mine from way back. I'm glad he appreciated this enough to also post it in one of his blog. The title of that poem is really "Lake of Emptiness". But I Guess he aptly put it as the hardest thing to say:) Here's the link: Special Poem Composed by a Great Writer


One of the many breakfast we shared from 2008

Just hanging out in the Office Pantry in RCBC-Makati


Team Building in Tanay Rizal- 2007

He attended my Oathtaking when I passed the board exam- LET in 2007

Another breakfast!

He drop me off at the airport when I went home for a much needed vacation

Monday, March 14, 2011

Poetry Session


I decided to bare my soul a little bit and post here few of the poems I made. Most of them were from years back and it kinda depicts those people I thought of that moment. I'm kinda fond of writing poems about what I feel for a friend, a special friend and anything in between! hehe. So I'll brace myself for a possible cyberspace humiliation coz I'm not really a good poet, just someone  who happens to be in love with poetry and tried so hard to make the most of what I feel:)

WAVE
by angelaires

Lucid as the water
I see you, I see me
Underneath the cirles of life
We keep bouncing,
Yes, You and me.

We danced through the music,
Lived through life
Laugh at each other
Chuckle at one another
And all the mirth has gone by…

And you cried…
I wiped your tears,
And I cried, but I didn’t feel your fingers
Bracing my pain
Pushing away my fears…

For a moment it was fine
Still we laugh, still we cried
I held the memory
Close to my heart
Closer than all the memory I have hoard

Till this space inside my heart,
Take it all away, so far away
That when I have grasped it again
Feels like a memory long gone by
Drenching my tears
Burning my throat

With the sound of our laughter
Now banished into the thin air
And everything I believed in,
 Hope and lived for
Was taken away from me
Where are we?
In this circle I lose myself
Lost inside the pain that I can no longer ignore

I’m sorry
But I needed to heal
This emptiness I long so ago felt
Maybe I wasn’t meant to stay for you
Maybe you weren’t meant to care for me
Maybe we’re better off
 When goodbye embrace us both


Let us but try to wave
Not because everything has come to an end
But because of something great in store for both you and me...
Let us welcome the people we’re bound to see,
Bound to laugh with, cry with and hold with.
Maybe then, we’ll find it home
Maybe then it was worth the going,
 And the passing, the pausing and the staying
They are but stages we need to go through my FRIEND.

I loved a friend
The way a friend should love a friend
That is all it is and all that I felt.


Another One of the few poems i made from way back.....





February 5, 2009 

Seasons of Love
By angelaires


In your eyes…
Reveals the deepest mystery,
Tangled and lost
Nevel will you set it free…

In there hang the words;
Sofly you lay them all,
Gently you take them back
Time… it does not belong to us

In another lifetime
Hand in hand,
My heartbeat next to yours
Intertwined, beating as one
Maybe then, we’ll have what we want
The most…
Consuming…
Invigorating…
Love.

Fall will soon fade
Soon enough the leaves will get back
Right to where it belongs…
In the bare arms of the trees
Then, I can hold…
The one I wanted the most…
You…
Us…

Winter will pass by,
Yet it won’t stand
Can’t dare to stay
The power of what I deem
What you feel.
Will push it way
Nay, never can it chill
The heat of what we feel
Strong…
Passion…
Us…

Bewildered when spring comes by…
Shakespeare can never be wrong
To be or not to be lies in our hands
Is there a chance?
To keep this real
Letting you know how I truly feel…
Fire…
Burning…
Pleading…
A lifetime with you…

Finally,
A peek of what tomorrow is,
Shall it bring sadness?
Or a taste of happiness?
Will it end the journey?
Or shall I wander some more
in the open galaxy…
Will we find a way
To make our dreams…
Come to reality

Just you,
Just me,
Just the two of us.
No things greater…
Nothing stronger…
LOVE
Is all I want
I need
I breathe
You…
Is all I want
I need.
I want.
I breathe
You are my LOVE.






Well, this is something I made last January 21, 09.
I don’t know what prompted me to write this but by wrecked brain just compelled my fingers to type the words. It sprung from utter randomness of my thought… Can’t say I was frustrated that time…But writing has always been a way for me to keep my nerves under control, relax me and keep me calm enough…Not that I was aggravated that time…It’s just that I’m trying hard to
understand something… Well, it’s a random world after all…whatever I mean.


 Untitled
By angelaires 


Caught in an unknown rhapsody
Yet denied by the pleasure of eternity,
Two hearts, two destination
They’ll never meet, never in unison

Up on the hill of solitude
Yearning to placate that wary countenance
But finding no valor to express thy gratitude
The choice left is a sturdy acceptance
Of what could never be…should have never begun.

If cruel is thy fate that I bid
So what’s worst than being empty handed?
Walking through life seemed like an exhausting struggle
To belong somewhere and be framed in a perfectly woven angle.
Ah. Life, if only we can do what should be done!

Down the road, I glimpse a symptom
As tears flung out of thy maiden’s vision
Aggravated of the world’s convention
What to do, where to go do you have a prediction?
Oh Moon, cover me from the hideous reality of life’s infraction

Here now, the climax is looming
I heard a scream from thy blistered heart that’s aching
Be strong, be noble and be swollen with pride
Do what’s best even if it meant a valediction
For the sun is waiting, with open arms for an untold new beginning.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Real Thoughts

I kept telling and reminding myself " no expectations, for it only leaves you frustrated and disappointed. Besides, loving is not owning. And when the impending end is drawing near...let go, loosen the grip, do not be afraid to walk alone, to wallow in an unknown. After all, people just come and go. Keep those that you can keep in your heart, let go of those who does not want to be remembered. Yes, softly cry your tears...but you don't need to let them know. You can keep your head high. But my pride hasn't been mine for a long time now...I love shamelessly, I care deeply...and when I lost...I have to bear it...and mend myself and give away what I have again...It's a cycle. I get tired sometimes. But I'd rather care than not care at all, I'd rather suffer than be free from painyet being alone.

I love walking people's journey. I like watching them overcome pain, sorrow, depression and victory. I love the feeling of being needed, important, significant...After all, I'm just a normal person like everyone else.